for pass few months i have seen many ppl n things changing around me maybe is due to isolation in NS n e outside world. places i used to go changed alot as new buildings come up or rebuild. ppl i once knew b4 also change to better or worse. some just of small things make it very big, can even tell u they seen yr true colors but for some manys years liao i been seeing thiers n just keeping quiet cos they are my friends as those are just minor stuff. haiz oh well life still must go on each leading thier own path n i lead mine.
wen NS started sometimes i have feelings like something going to happen to me, sometimes it does sometimes doesn't happen, worrying n scare of stuff like ghost, snake, big spiders, getting shot somewhere, etc. after awhile these things doesn't affect me anymore as thy has 1 life thy must live it through it with out any fear. most of e times you just have to stay clam n handle it. nw can catch snakes with out fear lol as i helped to catch 1 e other day in my bunk as e came in, in e middle of e night. as for life threating stuff, if u have tried to avoid or prevent it but it still happens u also can't really do much about it, only got 1 phrase "suck thumb n hack it" dying is part of life some ppl are long some are short. spending too much time worrying is just wasting it why not live it to e fullest as wen e time comes you have no regrets.
As for love part, many can't really escape it but wat to do only can wait. mood can really swing as i felt it many times during NS. seen many break ups and newly couples amoung my army mates. can't really share hw i really feel to many ppl as things will link here there den it get worse. finding some1 whom dun knw yr friends n sharing it is a better thing as they can tell u somethings about that you also didn't know or think about b4. it's not tat i dun wan to tell is tat i dun wan other ppl life to be affected cos of mei knw you will say you got to fight for it but i rather go through it alone, wen e time comes n i really need to say out i will do it.
*Day or night the sky is e best place to ease e pain
